Saturday, August 6, 2011

Spark

Before we all burn, there are a few things I'd like to say.

Cody: I have very few words left for you. In letters I've written to you, some sent and some still sitting in my high school notebook, I have tried to understand what exactly the relationship with us is. That talk scares you away. All I have to say anymore is that I will never hate you, you will always be my one that got away and my elementary sweet-heart. I hope life treats you well.

Travis: You're such a fool. I fell for you hard, and I don't regret a thing about that if only because I have learned. I learned that I should never be settling for someone who doesn't spark something within me. When we came to our crashing end, I experienced many emotions deeply and it opened my eyes and helped me choose who I would become for the future. You broke me in such a way that I was able to pick everything up and mosaic myself into a beautiful, confident, loving being. However you walked out of our relationship the same way you walked into it. You're full of false confidence and though you act like you have everything together in your life and behave as though nothing ever gets you down or stresses you out, I know it's a facade. You are a scared little boy inside, looking for approval no one in your life will be able to provide you with. When our paths cross in the future I hope that seeing me crushes you.

Sean: Damn is your sense of timing off boy. About two years behind on that one in fact. I liked you so much, wanted to give it a shot with you, and you for some reason didn't want to. Not only did you politely decline, you then started talking mad shit about me to all of our friends, telling them I was desperately obsessed with you and how I was saving my virginity for you and all these loads of endless, rootless bullshit. And I'm not really friends with any of those people anymore, no help from you and the drama you stirred up. Last night, however, it seems you decided to take matters into your own hands. You worked up the courage and you texted me like a real man, asking if I was alright with you asking me an awkward question. Like I would really decline... And then I had to tell you I am otherwise occupied and not available for pathetic relationship attempts. Have you seriously just recently been thinking about the way you treated me? How you were so two-faced? Have you just recently been realizing that you pretty brutally told me no, but I'm really not bad. Never have been dear. But now that I'm a few pounds down, more radiant in the way I live my life, and more confident I catch your eye and linger on your mind? Good. I'm glad.

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