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Well this is odd, sitting at a computer in a library in Cali at a school I don't go to and a place I've never been before. Usually I'm writing from my desk at home in Washington, all comfy and cozy and in my slice of this world. But today I write from Cal Poly. This is really what I've needed after the last stressful week, even though now thinking about it most of the stress came from the fact that I was leaving for this trip... Still. So much silence from someone you care about so deeply fucking sucks. It'll be odd to see how things are when I get back. If he is legitimately out of my life I'll probably be significantly upset, however I know I'll be fine. I'll find someone else, and I am not doomed to wander the face of this planet alone for all eternity.
I am so glad things aren't weird, being here and all. Andrew and I have talked for over two years now, crazy as that is to think about, and I think that's what makes it so easy. We seriously interact exactly like we do on Skype or on the phone, only there is nothing in between us. I can tell it catches him off guard too, and I know being around me for real is weird for him. Sometimes when he looks at me I can tell he is freaking out. Especially when I smile. He freaks out. I was mildly concerned coming down that it would be odd, or uncomfortable, or just downright strange actually physically being around each other, but it's not. Thank goodness for that.

That's all folks.