Return

It's been a week since I returned to my life from California. Something happened down there, I swear it. I'm viewing things through different eyes and something has changed in my core. In the past (even recent past) I had to force myself to focus on the good, to find some beauty in everything. But now I see beauty everywhere I look and in everyone I interact with. The faces I gaze upon are more lovely, the songs I hear are more harmonious, and every smile or laugh around me makes me do the same.
I came home to heartache, news that Paul wasn't who I though he was this whole time. News he had moved forward in his relationships without bothering to tell me at all. I really wasn't that upset by it though. He was a fool in the end and I move on without much loss.
I have an absurd amount to write about right now, and it's not flowing smoothly like I wish it would. I pause for now. More will come later.