Faith

In the last three days, I have thought about blogging many times. I considered topics, ways to approach them, posting pictures, and I have sat down and started to type only to hit Ctrl+A and delete it all. Once it was because I didn't know how to say what I wanted to say... Many times because I simply couldn't figure out what I wanted to say at all. A time or two because I didn't want to say it where someone else might see it, and just once because it felt so foolish to write the words in the first place that publishing them online felt like it bordered on insanity. But a few thoughts have lingered now, trickled down into this entry I suppose.
Sometimes it feels like I must be following a circular path in my life, because the same things happen most every time. Take, for example, my relationship situation. There is absolutely nothing wrong with it, we don't fight, and when we're together just hanging the two of us it's great. However, my evil little mind has decided to set me on edge and make me paranoid and unsure. Up until now I have had no problem just having faith in him and in whatever it is we have going on, but now I am so concerned about what's going on in his mind. He's been off his usual pace the last two weeks because of stress I'd safely say, and it's effecting everything. I know that much is true. But my paranoia is set on high nonetheless. What I'm trying to do now is get back into the state of mind I was in a month ago, when I was blissfully happy and carefree when it came to him. I do believe it is working too. Whether it works or not though, I'm not the only person in this equation and I suppose I should just relax and stay positive and have faith in him. He hasn't done me wrong yet.