Somebody to love

"Can anybody find me somebody to love..."

Maybe I'm happy, and it scares me a little.
Maybe I'm not put together, but I know I'm a beautiful mess.
Maybe I have too much faith in people, but I have to believe the best.
Maybe I'll just leave one day, but know I'll never forget all this.

It might be because the little things are finally adding up.
It might be because I'm happy as who I am nowadays.
It might be because in the end all we have is each other.
It might be because I need to start new, but this made me who I am.

I don't know what my future will bring. But I know I'm happy with this right now. Hearing someone say they care in one way or another and not feeling the compulsion to doubt them is amazing. Being close to someone, feeling their heart beat through their chest, it's real. It's nothing committed, but that doesn't take away the realness of being close. Maybe it will just be what it is until it isn't anymore. It could be this week, or a couple of months. Perhaps it'll be ongoing, when we're together we will be, and when one of us is gone we won't. It doesn't worry me right now, and the fact that it isn't worrying me almost worries me.

But it is what it is, and I love it.
But there is still a chance I might get things together someday.
But I will probably still get crushed every once in a while.
But maybe I'll just stay here, always.

In the mean time, I'll enjoy being close, having someone to lay beside.

"Everyday I try and I try and I try, but everybody wants to put me down; They say I'm going crazy...
Can anybody find me somebody to love?"